My heart is a little fucked up. I had an ablation a few months ago and it failed. Took me awhile to get the afib diagnosis as they just wanted to give you drugs for BP and send you off. Then that takes awhile after that to get something going to fix the problem.. Had a bad episode a couple weeks ago and my exwife took a video of the whole thing (getting cardioverted in ER) and send it to my work and family. Everyone is worried as fuck and it’s actually more stressful to have people checking on me. I actually didn’t mind this was done and don’t think it had any bad intent, it’s just the consequence of it making the thing worse.
Daughter finally on to her own life and I don’t see or talk to her nearly as much as before. She’s always been my best buddy and it’s really killing me. I know that is normal parenting and I’m happy about this but doesn’t make me less sad/lonely about it either.
Wife moved out a year and a half ago. Usually referred to as exwife. This is daughter’s mom that I stupidly remarried due to being lonely and plans to travel were ruined by covid. Bought a 3x bigger house, haven’t quite finished remodeling it and she moved out and it’s a bit much for me to afford and deal with and medically to do the work. But since daughter busy with her life I still rely on her for things and even as a semibest friend. With housing market and rates up though it doesn’t make any sense to move as it would be just as much for half the house, etc. Just kinda riding it out. Also find it hard to try and date with the heart thing.
Just got recommended to a 10th doctor for back/leg pain. I mean they think it’s all coming from bottom 3 disks being bulging, etc but not really a surgery that would help or really any kind of treatment. Kinda par for the course on being over 40 but still has me bummed. Mainly just from being bounced around.
Medically I just feel like a hypochondriac weenie too. But just got a crown that hurts too much because my dentist sucks but have been going there for like 27 years. Got a minor unrelated surgery having trouble getting scheduled before my company moves from a nice PPO to some HMO plan. Have some stupid ocular migraine thing that ophthalmologist was like yeah good luck there’s no cure for that but you can maybe wear glasses to reduce strain even though vision isn’t too bad.
I hit 3 hogs in my car Saturday. They’re totaling it out. Bummed on this because I babied it and kept it super clean and nice and it really was the nicest thing I have ever owned. Interest rate and car prices are INSANE so it’s not like I’ll be able to replace it or have something nice (at least to me) again. Dealing with adjuster being a pain, but think this is about worked out (he called a min ago).
My bicycle had a flat tire this morning. This one isn’t a big deal but,
I went to get in my truck (drove last 2 days ago) and a squirrel? had made a nest and chewed up everything in the engine bay. I’m sure most of the padding and rubber and stuff isn’t life ending but it got a bunch of vacuum lines that is being the main problem. And that is the one that sent me over the edge, a fucking squirrel.